I've been out of the internet world for 3 days again. sigh. The first two days, my all-time super friends stayed over my house soooo I've been kinda busy. I really enjoyed my time with them :) This maybe the last time we'll be able to do this since everyone will finally start to go our own separate ways.
But little did I know that all the happiness I've finally saved up would eventually drain out so fast.
I had little sleep the last two days and I had to go on hospital duty last night at 11pm. I arrived home at around 8am dead-tired.
I was really depressed to the point that I'd almost cried. I was so exhausted. Patients were all complaining. It's like everything was out of place. Although I was with two other nurses, it's like we weren't enough to handle the situation. EVERYTHING WAS A MESS! I was so tired, 3 days with little sleep. DAMMIT. One more wrong thing and I felt I was gonna break down or something.
When we were through with our shift, waiting for the endorsements to be done, I found myself sitting in one corner, staring in thin air. I could hear a lot of noises, like everyone was talking but I kept pushing it out my mind. If only I could, I would shout, "PLEASE JUST STOP! MAKE IT STOP!" I want everyone to shut the hell up, make time stop for a moment to collect myself.
After our experiences, I just wanna take a break. This is the reason why I can't feel Christmas.
Let me rest, please. Maybe what I need is a good long sleep.