Showing posts with label depressed. Show all posts
Showing posts with label depressed. Show all posts

Friday, December 23, 2011

8th, 9th and 10th day of Merry Blogging Christmas

I've been out of the internet world for 3 days again. sigh. The first two days, my all-time super friends stayed over my house soooo I've been kinda busy. I really enjoyed my time with them :) This maybe the last time we'll be able to do this since everyone will finally start to go our own separate ways.

But little did I know that all the happiness I've finally saved up would eventually drain out so fast.

I had little sleep the last two days and I had to go on hospital duty last night at 11pm. I arrived home at around 8am dead-tired.

I was really depressed to the point that I'd almost cried. I was so exhausted. Patients were all complaining. It's like everything was out of place. Although I was with two other nurses, it's like we weren't enough to handle the situation. EVERYTHING WAS A MESS! I was so tired, 3 days with little sleep. DAMMIT. One more wrong thing and I felt I was gonna break down or something.

When we were through with our shift, waiting for the endorsements to be done, I found myself sitting in one corner, staring in thin air. I could hear a lot of noises, like everyone was talking but I kept pushing it out my mind. If only I could,  I would shout, "PLEASE JUST STOP! MAKE IT STOP!" I want everyone to shut the hell up, make time stop for a moment to collect myself.

After our experiences, I just wanna take a break. This is the reason why I can't feel Christmas.

 Let me rest, please. Maybe what I need is a good long sleep.