3rd day of Merry Blogging Christmas

I can't decide on what to talk about today. Actually I'm very sad but it would be weird to talk about how sad you are when 'Tis the season to be jolly...

So I'll be talking about this holidays emptiness. I just feel so empty. Sometimes I'm happy but in the end, I'd still be empty. Christmas is sooo near but I just can't feel it. I try so hard to feel something, even the tiniest light of hope will make me happy. But somehow it just doesn't happen. I just can't wait to spend more time with friends and family, maybe that way happy holidays can be possible :)

1st and 2nd day of Merry Blogging Christmas

I was inspired by BertieBertG, a youtuber which I subscribed to, to make this 12 days of Christmas blog. Well, it was supposed to start yesterday... so forgive me I'm late (puppy dog pout).

But before anything else, here is BertieBertG. Loving the british accent? subscribe to him! :)

So lemme sum up the first and second day. Yesterday, the only highlight I have is to promote this korean drama titled, "Marry Me Mary." It stars the only korean actor I like. (waaaaaaaah xD)

 tan tananan!

JANG GEUN SUK. hahah.

yeah I like him.

ahh, can't believe how much his look changed ever since One Missed Call 3.

But no matter how much his hair changed, his voice deepened,

or how tall he got...

He always had that same hearty smile ♥

Yeah, Marry Me Mary kept me alive when I had nothing to do yesterday... and today, after a long stressful day. It was my first time as a private duty nurse. And it was really hard. I was physically exhausted. But somehow, it's so fulfilling. That is why, this second day of Merry Blogging Christmas is so special to me. I've conquered a fear. I was actually scared of accepting the job for today, but I told myself to just go do it, and everything will be alright. And it all turned out fine, that is why I am so happy :) I feel so accomplished and I could feel that I did something worthwhile. 

What did you do today? :)

Just A Confession

I hate watching one person miss another person. I hate how they miss the things they used to do, how they decided to end up their relationship but how I could clearly see that they still truly care for one another. I hate that more than seeing couples be so openly affectionate to one another.

This is the realization I came up with while watching this korean drama called "Marry Me Mary".

And what I really hate is how I could totally relate to that.

Yeah, I had a relationship with this person once. It was my first and only one yet. I'm not gonna lie and say that I don't miss him. I do. A lot of times. But I am over him, just so we're clear. It's just that watching one particular scene from this drama made me remember of the times that I did miss him. In this drama though, I could tell that the guy misses the girl too and that he truly cared about the girl. I just dunno if I could say that it's the same for the both of us though.

I miss him. I'm not so sure if he feels the same. But that's alright. I'm happy and I hope that he is. We haven't talked that much since the breakup. I just wish that I could talk to him like how we used to before this whole relationship started. The times before our relationship started is what I really missed the most.


But hey, this is reality. And what I can do is just choke up these feelings. He was a part of my past that I can never throw away nor would I wish to forget. I just hate it how things remind me that I sometimes miss him.

Yep, this is a confession. Not to that specific person though. So this may be more like me, just expressing myself, to get in into the open what I feel. I hope that maybe I could touch other people's hearts, even though I only have so few viewers.

Feel free to share your confessions as well (e.g. in the comment box below).

when NUMBNESS strike....

Some days may feel so happy and some are just so sad. Sometimes, you feel that you're so high up that you could give the whole world a smile while sometimes you just feel so low that you want to drag everybody down with you.

But there's always that point in time when you just feel so empty. When you long to feel something, but just couldn't. When words can't even explain it. That sometimes this thing eats you up and you can't even do anything but surrender to it. What sucks is that this whole thing happens when someone needs you the most. When someone you care about so much is having his low point in life, that's when they need you to bring them back up. But what can you do when you can't even do that to yourself?

It's actually one of those times when I don't know what to say or I don't know how to react. It's like words that I often counted on have turned its back on me. Maybe it's because I don't know what to feel or I don't feel anything at all. And for that, I just want to say, I'M SORRY. :(

youtube experience

You ever had that time on Youtube when you are searching for this one specific video then hours later you wandered off to "that" side of youtube. Yeah, I meant that weird side so far off from what you intentionally wanted to watch.

I was originally watching Greyson Chance's new music video, Hold On Till the Night (just the right promotion,  hahah) and well, after a few more hours; one video led to another and this is what I found myself watching. I was laughing my butt off this video that I had to share it with you! If you've already seen it, just watch it again, it'll still make you smile. hahah :D

peace out!

Relaxed or Rebonded?

I just got back from the bank. And there's this one thing I noticed with the tellers. They all have straight hair, and not the natural kind you guys might be thinking of.

It was just weird as I was jumping view from one teller to another, they all have the same hairstyle: straight, layered, no bangs, and divided from one side. Well, not to mention that they're already wearing the same uniform. Or it got me thinking, maybe IT IS part of their uniform! Aha! Maybe that's it! (wink)

I can't really describe how they look but I do hope you get what I mean. As I was waiting for my turn to come up; I wondered if I was the only one who noticed.  I'm no fashion expert and I apologize for making this observation for anyone to read but I just got amused looking at them. heheh.  I can't even distinguish a relaxed hair from a rebonded one and I hope I'm not the only one having this dilemma.

Is this a straight hair new fab or something cause I really don't know...

Peace out!

Sun Greyson Rain Cosplay

Whatta day! well, it was actually yesterday...

The upside..

Okay so it all started when I woke up with the sun's rays hitting my face. Feeling its warmth just made me smile and actually got me dancing on my bed. Finally, the sun came out after days of gloomy weather! And it's not just that, the day just keeps on getting better, or is it...?

oh yeah, the sun in shining!!!

gaaaaah!it burned my eyes!!!!

oh lookie, my shadow...where have you gone the past days?

The moment I do my routine over the internet, I saw that Greyson Chance's new music video is out! And yes, I am his fan. ^_^

The downside...

Around 2pm I guess, it started to rain once again. I was at my old high school attending an event with my sisters. Being there made me feel a bit uncomfortable. Although the place looked familiar, the faces don't. =/

Back at the top again...

When the rain finally came to a stop, we decided to catch up to the cosplay competition that's already started. So off we went...

Then back down again...

When we finally arrived to the event and I was expecting that anime convention kind of thing, you know, big and spacious... But, for all we know,  what was waiting for us was like a big conference room jam-packed with people. I was so surprised. But we said, whatever happens, we must go in, in the name of anime!!! We were like two soldiers heading for battle. So we finally went in and there was like a 5 to 10-degree  increase in temperature, and that's in Celsius! We had to endure that plus the crappy technicals...

You know the pattern...

Then it was finally time for the meet and greet/picture-taking with the contestants. Now, that was a blast :)

 I was surprised to see one of my high school batchmates enter in this competition.

That's her right up there :)

Oh look! It's Nobita. Amazing to cosplay such an old anime, right?

Kinda brings you back to memory lane....

Waaaah! This is from one of my all-time favorite anime!

Full Metal Alchemist

These two girls cosplaying here are cute :3

This guy here caught the attention of so many girls. hahah!

He kinda got embarassed coz of that.

Poor thing.

Nice outfit though.

And here is the grand winner of the competition!

She's really beautiful.

And really nice. hehe ^_^

So all in all, I had fun. From what happened, I can actually say: Life really is full of ups and downs. And hell yeah, ANIME RULEZ!!!